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It just felt so... Like... I dont know

Miten se voi tuntua normaalimmalta?

Jotenkin katoin mun kehoo ja mua ei haitannut samalla tavalla se kun ajattelin että oon vaan jotenkin samanlainen kun kaikki muutki pre t trans miehet. Sil ei oo ees väliä oonko vai en, mut koska se auttaa mua niin totta helvetissä ill take anything that helps. Anything.

I dont know why thinking of myself as a girl feels horrible but thinking of myself as a pre t trans guy (so, essentially, a girl, vielä tässä vaiheessa) feels much better and more normal.

Maybe it makes me feel more like my parts are normal cause thats what trans guys are pre t they have all the girl things and look like girls.

Really weird but i dont know.

But for some reason i do.

I feel so much better when i think of myself as a pre t trans guy. I dont know why though.

ISN'T HE SO BEAUTIFUL

Isn't he so attractive

Oh no He could never like me as much as i like him Really im so weak Im so weak i feel so weak like when i look at him i get so confused like i tremble 😭 isnt he so beautiful 😰😰

I still love him no matter if it's wrong or right

Say parasocial or anything but i literally dont care anymore

I know he doesn't know me but i dont know why it doesn't bother me i just feel like he can still heal me maybe

I totally forget that its actually about god cause for me its about Eunkwang that much

In reality its about god but for me its really about kwang hahah

Hes the only thing that could ever heal me hes the only one who could make me accept myself. Literally the only one. I KNOW im way too obsessed but things are like this.

Katoin sen yhen pitkän vidin ja idk his presence is the only thing that makes me feel okay about my gender hes literally the only one who has the ability to heal me.

Without him i feel like i would have nothing Sounds stupid but i just can't do it alone. I have to at least believe that someday. Cause like i said, i will die soon if this doesn't get easier. Thats why i have to keep my delusions alive.

Mä en tiedä miks mut aina kun ajattelen eunkwangia se auttaa mua hyväksyy itteni vaikka en mä tiedä silti vihaan mut yritän vaan jotenkin aatella sitä ihmist cause i know he would accept me as i am (okay delusion) and he would just... Yeah.... I just try to always think about that time when we...