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[qualitymonkey]

Me: *doesnt even like sex, in fact, hates it*

*Hes just doing this stuff*

Me: *imagines*

Me: erm what the sigma




Out of nowhere he made me imagine it was like i didn't even like it but he made me think about it for some reason and i still didn't even like the thought but he MAKES ME THINK

(and NOT intercourse by the way)

What is the reason why he makes me think?


If i dont like it, whats the reason why he makes me think?






Its not like anyone else makes me think



Or, anyone else, generally, usually, you know

 

[qualitymonkey]

So it must Be sexual attraction despite not even liking sex and not even liking The thought but hes so attractive

 

[qualitymonkey]

So it must Be sexual attraction despite not even liking sex and not even liking The thought but hes so attractive

Does that even make sense?

 

[qualitymonkey]

So hes attractive which makes you think about sexual acts sort of but you dont like that thought, yet you think hes so attractive and his attractiveness is the reason why you started to have those thoughts suddenly cause you were looking at him?

Yea makes perfect sense

 

[qualitymonkey]

Yea makes perfect sense

 

[qualitymonkey]

Attractive man: *exists*
Me: sexual thoughts must happen, automatically
Me: i dont like these thoughts but they must happen
Me: still dont like sex
Me: still dont wanna have sex with him
Me: im attracted to him though so sexual thoughts must keep happening from time to time
Me: makes more sense than you know

 

[qualitymonkey]

Me: *sexually attracted to him*
Also me: *doesnt wanna have sex with him*

Mitä.

 

[qualitymonkey]

When you are, in fact, attracted to him sexually without even wanting to jump to bed with him at all

When you are, in fact, curious about his d without wanting to DO STUFF to it

 

[qualitymonkey]

When you are, in fact, graysexual

When you are, in fact............ O r c h i d s e x u a l ??

 

[qualitymonkey]

I must be orchidsexual because it makes sensw

 

[qualitymonkey]

I just flipped and thought omg what if i want to really

But like

Still not convinced and still a virgin so

I can still say that cause like

Its not like i want to do it :D

At least for now huh

Dont even think id want to do it oml that sounds so bizarre

 

[qualitymonkey]

Certified orchidsexual if im not mistaken

 

[qualitymonkey]

Certified graysexual if im not mistaken

 

[qualitymonkey]

I mean i am orchidsexual now


I just dont know if i was that ALWAYS

or maybe

It was trauma

Or maybe it wasnt

But maybe

I wasnt always like this

Or probably i was

Or who knows

All i know is im that now

 

[qualitymonkey]

Who cares about before

Also dont know about future

But i am that now

 

[qualitymonkey]

Its the only thing that even makes sense at all

And yea

Having sex in your mind doesnt count as "desiring a sexual relationship"

And i never even fully like those thoughts either

I might like them in a weird way

But they make me so fucking uncomfortable

But also: i like his body

 

[qualitymonkey]

Like even now i am sooooooooo fucking uncomfortable what the actual sigma

 

[qualitymonkey]

Oikeesti

 

[qualitymonkey]

Nobody was ever as uncomfortable with sex as i have been in my life

 

[qualitymonkey]

Show me any sex scene in television history, and i mean any, and im going to be uncomfortable

 

[qualitymonkey]

Say the word sex and im going to be uncomfortable

 

[qualitymonkey]

Put me in any sexual situation ever, by myself or with any person ever, and im going to be uncomfortable

 

[qualitymonkey]

All of this is true while still being crazy intensely attracted to him like isnt he the most handsome man anyone has ever seen

What??????? 😭

 

[qualitymonkey]

Doesnt he have the best upper body anyone has ever seen

 

[qualitymonkey]

Isnt his skin so nice looking like it basically invites you to get closer like brooooooooo isnt his skin perfect

Id die if i could just touch his skin

Isnt everything just so

IMAGINE him shirtless or something and myself hugging him like oooooooooh ä


DOESNT HE LOOK SO GOOD ESPECIALLY SHIRTLESS what

It feels like

It feels like i want to be closer to him

It feels like i think about *sexual* but omg blush i couldnt even

I would blush too much anyway



Nah who could perform sexually i would go "🤭🤭🤭 stop i am blushing i feel butterflies in my stomach"

And then i couldnt do anything but be like phoebe when joey says how you doin

I AM like that

Id be "hihihi *blushing so hard*" and thats all

Call me childish but thats all im gonna say its just a fact


Who the fuck says im obligated to do more than go "hih 😍🤭"

Im fucking asexual

Or like

Ace-spec


Dont get it? You dont have to but leave me aloneeeeeeeeee






I wonder if we dated would we actually fight about this or not



Something tells me hes not the kind of person to get angry about not having sex (even if its not having sex at all)

Something just tells me he wouldnt be angry :D

 

[qualitymonkey]

Many people are

 

[qualitymonkey]

Kun seksi on sulle kynnyskysymys.. tiedät ettet ole normaali 🧐😃

 

[qualitymonkey]

Enhän mä oo, oikeesti

 

[qualitymonkey]

Asexuals arent normal, i know right

 

[qualitymonkey]

Silleen what the fuck is so difficult just be like everyone else and do it????????????