Aihe vapaa En tiiä saatana

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En jaksa enää läähättää tota 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

 

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Also

Some random man years ago: kaunis nainen
Minä tänään: HYVÄ so i dont have to worry about being ugly THANK YOU FINALLY

 

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Minä: GOOD SO I DONT HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT, FINALLY SOME SENSE IN MY HEAD

 

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Oikeest miks mua häiritsee kaikki mun kehossa mä kuolen, saatanaaa

 

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No, i still dont think im ugly, its not about that

 

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Its just ocd

 

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Tai jotain muuta

 

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Im so obsessed with my hymen of course im a virgin and it has nothing to do with that, muuten vaan im obsessed with it for no reason

Yes, i dont know the state of my hymen

Yes, i dont know if i even ever had one

Yes, i am a virgin and nothing changes that obviously

But yes, i am obsessed with it and want to know and i feel guilty and scared

Like idk what im allowed to do

Its probably affected already

Since i did do dancing, i did do karate, ive been to pe classes in school, ive been walking, running and jumping, i think i even rode (?) horses a couple of times, no i have never used tampons, no, i have never had piv sex, yes, i did go to a gyno and yes she did take some sort of thing from there (joku näyte, se oli kai just hiivan epäilyn takia mut se ei ollukaa sit hiiva mut sitä varten se ilmeisesti oli), so yeah i have done a lot of stuff like that.

So my guess is its probably broken or something. Or i dont know. Maybe not. Or maybe i never had one. Mua vaan pelottaa.

I just dont want to worry about that

But its not only that

Its also my whole vulva like im scared if it changes, and it does change with age but i just cant handle all of this

Its so fucking difficult to just live life

Oh and by the way its the same thing with boobs

Jos aatellaan vaikka että juoksee vähän matkaa nii sit oot sillee APUA THIS IS NOT GOOD FOR MY BOOBS

niinku voidaanko lopettaa sen ajattelu et mikä on hyväks mun keholle tai mitä sille muutenkaan tapahtuu ja saanko elää rauhassa

Also, worrying about my hymen in any way is like worrying about it when my periods come and being like OH NO i lose my uterine lining

Or "oh no i lose my eggs and at some point i have no more eggs"

Thats just as dumb as thinking "oh no, something happening to my hymen"

Yeah and what if it happens??????????? :DDDDDD

its so stupid

Like

Yeah

OH NO SOMETHING HAPPENED TO MY HYMEN well guess what its basically the same as periods year after year after year it just happens and you cant do shit about it

Eniten mua varmaan ahdistaa se etten mä tiedä

Niiku tissit mua on lakannu ahdistamasta niin paljon koska tiedän niiden tilan kun nään ne selkeemmin nii tiedän miltä ne näyttää its like yes they sag now and so

But i dont have a clue about my hymen kosk en ikinä oo sattunu näkee sitä

Ja vulva muutenkin mua mietityttää miltä se kokonaisuudessaan näyttää jne mikä siin on muuttunu ja mikä siit on mun syytä

Arvaa mikä on sairaan triggeröivää

Tää esim:

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Shocking, i never had a baby, like, no shit?????

But it still bothers me and like it bothers me that its just a hole and not something like a penis and it feels like nothing bad ever happens there but vulvas just get broken as hell and then everything is just a fucking mess and then youre like.. broken or something idk

See like i just want it to be normal

Eww

En oo ees varma oonko ikinä laittanu sormia sisään koska sillon pari kertaa taisin koettaa mutta en tiiä oliko ne sisällä edes

Joten nii

Its like ... i just hate this

I just want to relax and live my life

Like what is this? Ocd? Body obsession? Jotain iha muuta?

Some sort of obsession which bothers me but yea idk

Like how can people live knowing they had a fucking baby and their body is completely broken???????

I could never

Ei sillä että haluaisin lapsia kyllä muutenkaan (being a stepparent on ainut poikkeus, JA SEKIN ISO EHKÄ)

i never had piv sex and i never had a baby like sooooooo fucking many women in this world have done all of that

And i havent

And im stressing more than they ever did??

vaikka oon tehny hädin tuskin mitään sellaista

I just dont want anything to get broken aaaaaa mä en kestä tätä enää :D

Do i have some "not breaking stuff" ocd

well jokes on you you already have a scar on your leg and on your wrist what the

If you dont wanna break your body........ I think its too late :D you already have scars and also those breasts are sagging, like i said

I think i even had stretch marks but now i havent seen them?????????? Did they just disappear??

I have even gained and lost weight

My chest even became smaller when i lost weight

So what exactly are you tripping about??? 😩

Why is this a problem?????

Why is any of this a problem????

Jos ei keho nyt vähän kestä elämää (oli se seksuaalista tai jotain muuta) niin huh on kyllä kumma


Like what the fuck dont cry you shouldnt give a shit about what happens

You have a scar on your wrist

You have a scar on your leg

I think you might even have those marks on your knee

Your breasts sag

Why the hell would you be worried what the fuck is the state of your hymen or vulva?

I am confused.

I AM confused

 

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Now thank you, maybe i can now get back to living my normal life and listen to music and eat a fucking breakfast lmao

 

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I am SO CONFUSED

im wondering if anyone else has ever had this like its sooooooooooo weird

 

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Its kind of like the age thing

 

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Ku oon sillee "oon vasta 26 though" ja oon sillee lmao im ruined at 40

 

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Like all of that is kinda like the same thing

 

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Silleen

How do i know that everything is okay with my body

Olin väärässä kun oletin että tää on vaan "mä oon ruma" juttu

Ei todellakaan ole :DDDD

ja kuten sanottu, en vieläkään koe itteeni rumaks

Tää on nyt vaan ihan muuta pakkomielteisyyttä mutta kehosta kuitenkin

 

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Esim arvet

Eihän se rumuudesta oo

Enkä millää taval koe itteeni rumaks

Se on vaa se et why do i let this happen to my body, its broken

Tai jotai tollast niiku

Ah yeah

Its so broken...

 

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Like how do i KNOW that everything in my body is okay 🧐

Thats the question

 

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Maybe just the fact that im able to live? Is enough, right?

 

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Right?

 

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🧐🧐🧐🧐🧐🧐😭😭😭😭😭😭

 

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Yeah

Its enough

If im able to live thats enough thats all i need

 

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LIKE OH MY GOD

if your body cant deal with life

Then what the fuck

 

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I dont give a SHIT what happens to my hymen for example or anything else for that matter

If my body literally cant handle life then thats too bad

 

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Not my fucking problem

Can i please eat breakfast now

 

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WAIT

EUNJI A CHUBBY QUEEN

shes not as chubby as me BUT STILL CHUBBY QUEEN

👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

so we do have these gems in the korean.... Entertainment... Industry???

 

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Tämä on oikea suunta

 

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YES

literally

 

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I want more of this

 

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I want chubby people to be visible in korean music videos etc

 

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Not only one body type

 

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AND IN THIS OUTFIT???? TOO MUCH SLAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭