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[qualitymonkey]

Isnt it funny how i have a whole list of kpop people who i have a crush on, yet i wouldnt fuck a single one of them. Like not one.

 

[qualitymonkey]

Thats what you get when youre orchidsexual

 

[qualitymonkey]

Once again i wish taeil was my man

 

[qualitymonkey]

Year 3 of wishing taeil was my man

 

[qualitymonkey]

YES, YEAR 3, WHAT THE FUCK

 

[qualitymonkey]

Another day of living in a world where sex is still a thing. Disappointed, but not surprised 😮‍💨

 

[qualitymonkey]

If im being quite honest i feel like my sex stance is still the same (neverrrrr) but my child stance is now more like "well, i am living in the moment, and all i know is im still childless so 🤷🏻"

And yes, you can have children without sex too lol so not confusing at all or a joke xD

 

[qualitymonkey]

And yes, i am VERY HAPPY about being childless, but you never know what happens after 10 years

 

[qualitymonkey]

I mean honestly? I dont see myself having a kid. But im just saying theres a tiny tiny chance

 

[qualitymonkey]

And im just saying you never know what happens

 

[qualitymonkey]

Eww disgusting i dont want kids at all 😂 thats what i think at 26

 

[qualitymonkey]

Do you think thats gonna be the case my whole life? 🤔

 

[qualitymonkey]

Idk

 

[qualitymonkey]

About sex......... Well, eww disgusting is what i think 😂😂

BUT

i dont count kissing and making out as sex and that sort of thing.

Tai siis ne mitä oon jo tehny aiemmin nii i dont count them as sex.

All that stuff. Def not sex so its not like i dont ever wanna make out and not like i couldnt ever for example sort of do mild stuff

Its just that i wont have penetration, any oral sex, or anything like that

I still dont remember what the hell i did as a child i only remember i probably took my panties off or something and maybe we were under covers but other than that i dont know at all what we did. But as children, it probably wasnt anything too hardcore :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD this is what i mean. Its not like i couldnt do that sort of stuff. Mild stuff. But actual sex? No no no no no no. And no.

Tbh i dont even consider clothed dry humping sex.

Or like its so mild that i dont think its gonna be too traumatic to me?????

So like basically if i sit on his lap and we just dry hump and its clothed and all... I consider it mild enough.. like clearly. Its not even really sex. Or maybe iy is, maybe its not, but its not that traumatic kind of sex at least. Meaning its not really hardcore or anything. I assume its not something that would make me cry my eyes out? Probably not?

So mild stuff like that i think im able to do


Other than that.....? ..... Naurrrr.,..........



JOSSAIN SE MENEE MUNKI RAJA


😂🤦🏻👁️👄👁️

 

[qualitymonkey]

And does THAT count as orchid xdddddddd

 

[qualitymonkey]

Lmaooooo dry humping, kissing/making out, stuff like that

Oh im pretty sure what we did as kids with that boy was something like just exploring our genitals, maybe we kissed and explored our genitals, something like that. But dude, it wasnt like.. sex :D it was that sort of mild stuff.

So all that mild stuff i think, i THINK, its okay

But anything more hardcore than that? No, no, no, no, no, no :D

 

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[qualitymonkey]

Oral? Hell no

Handjob? Hell no (like i said, mildly its different)

Intercourse? Hell no

All of those that normally count as sex, hell no.

All of those sexual things that are still MILD? yes possibly

 

[qualitymonkey]

By the way, am i weird

The answer is yes i am

 

[qualitymonkey]

Omg i do not know if i can call myself orchid then??????? Does it count omg

 

[qualitymonkey]

I dont know

 

[qualitymonkey]

What

 

[qualitymonkey]

I am so fucking confusionn??????

CONFUSION

like what the fuck caused me to have that flash of him being MY MAN?

i repeat: of him being MY MAN

i am so so so so so fucking confused i am so so fucking confused that i could actually cry right now

If it wasnt true.........

Then what the hell

?????????????

HONESTLY

Im like

What the fuck Was that flash?

 

[qualitymonkey]

My whole life seems like a movie now, and by that i mean like something NOT REAL. like its a movie, like its actually fiction.

 

[qualitymonkey]

I have trust issues now

 

[qualitymonkey]

Like i have serious trust issues

How can i trust in anything after this katastrofi

 

[qualitymonkey]

Do you think i will ever trust my "gut" again

 

[qualitymonkey]

For fucks sake it betrayed me 😂

 

[qualitymonkey]

Intuition is the innate ability to know something without having to consciously think about it. It's often referred to as a “gut feeling” when you “just know” something

Yeah

Do you think ill EVER trust that feeling ever again

For fucks sake it told me ill have a celebrity husband (or boyfriend) and that that person is seo eunkwang like what the fuck?????????

WHAT THE FUCK

LIKE WHAT THE FUCKIDY FUCKIDY FUCK

you think im ever gonna trust anything or anyone ever again

 

[qualitymonkey]

Oh bloody hell