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Like i just dont know HOW to get prettier from here yknow

 

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But wait

 

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Yhtäkkiä muistin kuinka mulla oli samankaltainen olo silloin kun olin ulkona ja yhtäkkiä se kaikki meni pois koska mulle tuli helpottunut olo kun mulla oli tomboy clothes

Jotenkin sitä kautta se kaikki meni vaan pois

Although i have tomboy clothes now too?????

Idk just wondering shouldnt that help

 

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Koska mulle tuli yhtäkkiä itsevarma kun laitoin isohkon hupparin päälle jne

 

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Siis mul oli vaa jotenki niin sellanen olo et mikään ei voi horjuttaa mua täl hetkel

 

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Like honestly i was like i feel the best when i dress like this

 

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Then why not now

 

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Ehh

Its alright

 

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I like my clothes now

 

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I mean i like all my clothes

But it depends on my mood what i need to wear

 

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When im this much insecure i need to wear those tomboy clothes cause it makes me more secure

 

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And i wear themnow?

 

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Yes i look at my reflection

And i look like a tomboy rn

 

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Ok

Maybe it helps

 

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Cause im sick of this

Instead i want to create my own aesthetic

 

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This look makes me more confident

 

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Id rather not be pretty but handsome

 

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But of course, still a girl

 

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Like okay, like

Why am i not okay the way i am now?

 

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Why do i need to get thin to be beautiful?
Why do i need to get plastic surgery to be beautiful?
Why do i need to get rid of acne to be beautiful?
Why do i need to do anything to be beautiful?

Why am i not beautiful now?


Well, lets be honest, im not beautiful in my opinion.

In MY OPINION, im not beautiful.

Like thats a fact, its my opinion, you cant tell me otherwise.

But do i need to feel beautiful?

No.

Do i need to feel beautiful to be alive?

No.

I can live and not feel beautiful. Its alright, and im basically used to it anyway, so.

So i can just stay unpretty, in MY OPINION, and keep feeling bad but it doesnt matter

Id rather feel bad, id rather feel ugly all the time, than try any of these things to make myself more beautiful


Yes i feel bad, yes i feel ugly

But id rather be ugly

Its alright to me

Im used to it

 

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Actually its not even that bad to feel ugly

 

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Like honestly its just something youre used to and youre always like oh yea thats just what i am, i am ugly, so?

And youre like yes i like this cute man and i myself am ugly but like it doesnt bother me cause im so used to feeling ugly so like.... And?

I guess i dont even want to be beautiful anymore

 

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Its kinda comfortable to feel ugly

 

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Omg

Kari on yhä söpö mut silti, MY LOVE:

 

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Yyh

Ihana mies

 

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Sigh i want to go to korea

Because of my sweetie 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

 

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I wont, but i want to

 

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Im just wondering

Is 102 cm hips really so big that pants fit me this badly

Like even L size pants

EVEN L SIZE PANTS

(M fits better so you already know theres no logic here, they have different sizes or something)

But seriously is that SUCH a big measurement that i have only this many pants that are big enough

Like most of them are probably too small for me

Is that REALLY sooooo big

That most of them are just too small for me

Its really annoying because like how much do i need to lose

 

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Like how many cm do i need to lose

Or how many kg

 

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Like probably at least 5 kg