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[qualitymonkey]

Im so uncomfortable looking femme

 

[qualitymonkey]

Its like a warm hug, this presentation

 

[qualitymonkey]

It lets me be a female completely in peace without crying

 

[qualitymonkey]

It compensates for the female sex so that it's like, balanced

 

[qualitymonkey]

Butch presentation is like a mask that protects me from being like "too female", well, you know what i mean. Too much of it. Like it almost makes me a guy and thats what i always wanted, duh. But without actually being a guy.

 

[qualitymonkey]

Me dating eunkwang and asking him: do i look butch enough?????? I hope i dont look feminine

 

[qualitymonkey]

Seuraava askel on transitio 😂 no ei sentään

 

[qualitymonkey]

Läppä

 

[qualitymonkey]

Hauskaa koska en edes katsonut mitä laitoin päälle, sit yhtäkkiä vaan huomasin kun satuin kattomaan peilistä että oho mä näytänkin butchilta nyt

 

[qualitymonkey]

Ja sellanen helpotus vaan vyöryi mun päälle

 

[qualitymonkey]

Mut joo en mä tiiä

Ei mul oo mitää pakkoa koko ajan näyttää siltä

 

[qualitymonkey]

I just feel so much better now and even when i lifted my shirt and looked at my breasts it was like a warm hug because being a butch means.... Just... Being butch.... Its so different from femme. Or like. Any other way of being. If youre a butch female then its like..... Someone who isnt a butch at all cant understand what its like because butches dont care what their breasts look like etc its just that everything is like whatever. Like i couldn't care less. You know. Its an attitude as much as its presentation. And i think the attitude comes from the presentation maybe. Thats what gives it to me?

 

[qualitymonkey]

Muutenkin i feel at home and i feel like this is who i really am. Not the person who sent pics to guys and tried to be feminine and appeal to guys. Thats just not who i am. I just... Dont feel feminine.

 

[qualitymonkey]

Or maybe, maybe its fluid. But still. Now.

 

[qualitymonkey]

I just feel so, so, so comfortable when i dont have to act feminine. Yes its acting for me. Its not natural, its acting.

 

[qualitymonkey]

Ymmärrettävää miks se on niin tavallaan sellanen hiuksenhieno raja between trans man and butch. But im just butch.

 

[qualitymonkey]

Mut kun mullakin se sekottuu tosi helposti ja i just end up being confused koska en ymmärrä mikä oon.

 

[Skeletor]

Ymmärrettävää miks se on niin tavallaan sellanen hiuksenhieno raja between trans man and butch. But im just butch.

Entä kuinka ohut raja on siinä, jos on fransmanni ja dutch?

 

[qualitymonkey]

Entä kuinka ohut raja on siinä, jos on fransmanni ja dutch?

😂😂😂😂😂 No ei varmaan kovin ohut? 🤔😂

 

[qualitymonkey]

"I’m a 19 year old stud who’s looking for a male asap
I’ve been so hot for men lately please contact me if you are in Milwaukee 💦"

"I'm a black butch interested in guys"

Lmaooooooo

But yeah interesting

Wait

Stud

I guess its butch but black...? So i couldn't say im a stud cuz i think it means black

Or maybe no????????? Maybe it can be used of anyone?

Yeah but im just personally afraid if i got in a relationship with a man, someday like years and years from now, then...... Is he going to try to change me? 😐 Is he going to try to make me more feminine? Most men would, but probably not all. Arent other butches who are interested in men afraid of it? Bc im not changing. Im not changing for no man.

 

[qualitymonkey]

XD

Ku selasin kuvii must ni olin vaa sillee "butch, femme, butch, femme, femme, maybe femme" etc :D joten joo, se vaihtelee tai nii mä ainaki ite perceive sen. Et jotenkin katoin vaa intuitiol et kummalt se tietty kuva mun mielestä näyttää. Joten joo kyl se vaihtelee ni ei kai voi sanoo et olisin strictly butch mut semmone joka vaihtelee ni periaatteessa oon molempia. Mut joo.

Well i am uncomfortable with my gender but less uncomfortable than i would be if i always presented as femme. That would be horrible and uncomfortable.

So it helps but it doesn't take all of it away.

Maybe it would if i strictly started presenting as butch, like ALWAYS. but i cant do that it's too much stress, so no.

 

[qualitymonkey]

I dont know how i can be so uncomfortable

 

[qualitymonkey]

But actually no idk

It really helped when i watched one vid, a masculine woman talking about this stuff.

 

[qualitymonkey]

That also eased the uncomfortability of my gender